Obrolan Dedi & Nigolan

Kembali lagi di blog favorit para nigolaners I hope semuanya baik-baik saja Masih pada stay di rumah dan stay healthy tentunya Setelah seminggu lebih dipenuhi dengan kesibukan kerjaan dan online course, akhirnya gw punya waktu untuk kembali disini melanjutkan cerita tentang my quarter life crisis so lets refresh where we left off last week (seperti recap film netflix ceritanya) Kembali ke jakarta setelah 4 tahun berada di luar mengubah pola pikir dan ekspetasi akan fase berikut di kehidupan gw I was struggling with hatred, disappointment, shame and insecurity in me Hingga akhirnya gw memutuskan untuk melanjutkan mengambil master di singapur It was not easy at the beginning I was contemplating with so many uncertainties and questions in my head Is this a good decision? Will i regret it? Am i too old to go back to school? Am i gonna waste my my time? Am i only running away from reality? Apakah ini benar-benar yang gw mau? Satu hal yang

Welcome back to my blog nigolaners Hope everyone is coping well with this self-quarantine situation and staying sane tho i know it's been pretty though 1 thing that i can say just eat whatever u want and stay alive cos getting fat is technically better than dying jangan lupa untuk selalu menjaga kebersihan dan jangan takut akan gelap (on the side note: ga nyambung tapi gw lumayan terkejut tau tasya penyanyi kecil jaman dulu uda punya anak) This post will be pretty deep i guess, it's something that i never really share with anyone else what i went through the last 2-3 years was shit Quarter life crisis I dont wanna sound lebay or baper cos some of u might not believe in it or think im just ranting out for something relatively small as compared to others But for me, it really hit me I went through hatred, shame, disappointment, insecurity over myself I was lost Cerita bermula dari kepulangan gw dari newcastle setelah s1 selese Having stayed overseas far

Selamat berjumpa kembali para nigolaners Well, it's been a while since my last post Life has been up and down for me (i mean no shit, everybody's is, tho i hope everybody is doing well) The last time i wrote a blog was 4 years ago I just completed my undergrad study back then, started my first full-time job at a photography agency in Jakarta. Abis itu, I found my passion for superfoods, particularly in acai bowl (check out the ig , bukan endorse loh ) Sometime after, i decided to pursue a masters degree at SMU. Setelah lulus (alhamdullilah) , i started a new job as a marketing exec sampai sekarang (and still counting). So that was a quick update of my life, with me based in Singapore for now. In case you guys are asking "kok tiba2 ngeblog lagi?" Firstly, I need to thank someone for spurring me to write again, she was reading my blog, and she told me it was good, despite me saying it was receh and malu-maluin. Jujur, i thought my blog was kinda la

I used to avoid “missing” something, flashing back your memories, either it’s a place, person, food or even moment, and wishing to go back in time. I hated it so much. Sebagai seseorang yang sangat visual, gw merasa otak gw sangat mudah menampilkan gambaran-gambaran memori di masa lalu yang pernah gw lewati, and it happens all the time. So, when I started to miss something,  my brain would start to flashback the past memories uncontrollably dan dengan mengingat kembali masa lalu ini, hal pertama yang gw rasakan adalah sedih, yang entah gw sendiri pun gatau kenapa harus sedih yang pertama kali muncul. I felt like I really wanna go back in time, pengen balik ke tempat itu, ketemu orang-orang yang gw kangenin, pengen tinggal di lingkungan itu lagi, pengen having conversation dengan accent itu lagi, kembali ke momen-momen indah yang pernah terjadi. As time flies and by getting more matured, I actually can see it more clearly now. Kangen

Well, terasa abu-abu bagi mereka yang kurang familiar walaupun kita tau pasti advertisement itu ada dimana-mana, di jalanan, fb, youtube, and even your phone, you may know the surface yet not the core part of it. Cerita bermula 4 stngh taun lalu, Di masa kelas 3 SMA, titik penentuan, mau kemana gw abis ini? mau ngapain gw abis ini? gw harus kuliah apa? uncertainty... ... Bukan mau pamer ato apa, tapi dulu gw ambil ipa, dan nilai gw bisa dibilang ga jelek jelek banget, gw bisa menangkap pelajaran lumayan cepat, but i was so certain that i didn't want to continue any science shits for the rest of my life, i knew that gw ga seberapa brilliant di bidang science even I did survive, gw ga bisa jadi dokter karena hafalan biologi gw lemah, gw ga mau ambil teknik kimia ataupun biotech karena gw ga suka sama sekali, gw ga mau ambil teknik sipil ataupun elektro karena menurut gw itu bener-bener susah, gw ga sepinter temen-temen gw yang uda ikut OSN atau any interna

Hey nigolaners yang ada di belahan dunia manapun, I know it's been 9 months since the last time I updated this blog. Bukannya mau galau atau terkesan sok dewasa, tapi ya, 9 bulan ini bener2 terasa seperti pengalaman berarti walaupun berlalu sangat cepat. I've just noticed there was 1 thing missing from my life, yaitu berbagi cerita dan masalah pribadi dengan orang lain. Yup gw emang orang yang tertutup, berbicara sedikit, selalu menyembunyikan perasaan pribadi, trying to be goofy all the time. But yes, I also do feel sad, disappointed, angry sometimes.. just that speaking it out doesn't make me comfortable. Dan... mungkin karena gw half-introvert, menulis adalah media terbaik buat gw untuk menyalurkan semua cerita yang terjadi di hidup gw. Maka dari itu, gw akan lebih sering-sering mengupdate blog ini mulai detik ini juga (amin :') ) Well I don't know how to explain it, gw cuma berasa waktu berjalan cepet banget. 1 bulan lalu gw baru aja men